_____ x. Yong Yuan Ai Ni - Niu Nai * .

2006-04-13T08:23:00.000-07:00

feel so tired these days wor..
i mean i noe my life isnt as stressful as others..
they hav tons of responsilbities
and i dun.. but feel so old lehs.
got wrinkles le.. i tink. : <- ME!
tink i bring unneed stress on myself bahs..
must change this bad habit! hahas.
but maybe need a lil help in there.. hehs.

hope i find my purpose in life soon =D

this week's horoscope for geminis: believe that you are the luckiest!
so... am i? lols.

trying so hard to stay optimistic..
but its killin me slowly..
how long can i remain smiling
without you beside me..

2006-03-02T05:35:00.000-08:00

i know i had always been a worthless loser;
annoying understatement;
jealous retard;
selfish bitch;
stupid burden;
pathetic disappointment;
i know i had always been in the way;
good-for-nothing;
thoughtless;
lost; careless;
SORRY;
i know i never treasure you in the past...
somehow i still cant seem to start learning now..
help me to realise my mistakes yah?

i will always be there..
silently by your side.

2006-02-21T04:46:00.000-08:00

So no one told you life was gonna be this way
Your job's a joke, you're broke,
your love life's D.O.A
It's like you're always stuck in second gear
When it hasn't been your day, your week,
your month, or even your year
But ... I'll be there for you
When the rain starts to pour
I'll be there for you
Like I've been there before
I'll be there for you
'cause you're there for me too.

you used to be. at least. :)
and im happy.

2005-12-29T07:31:00.000-08:00

ackkk stupid stupid stupid chinese books.
now my head is all messed with chinese dumb words.
arugh.

ok dun mind me. im a normal person actually.
not a crazy one. and a wuliao one.
so pls dun take my previous [some deleted] posts seriously.
hahas.

so. im in 3h. ok... actually i dunno if im even in the class i wanna be in.
lols. cus erm.. everyone is all scattered?
so somehow i aint sure im supposed to be happy or disappointed. hahas.
is that good or bad? huhs..

remember.. im normal! i am!
though sometimes i seriously doubt it.
or is it just me? haha.
maybe im just a bimbo who wouldnt admit the truth. :P

2005-12-13T07:57:00.000-08:00

im really really scared.. of next year.
the future, actually.
i mean, a dream of me failing some damm test..
for several nights continuously?
wth is THAT supposed to mean?
is it a sign or something.
well i sure hope it goes and kill itself and never fall on me.

thats the only thing on my mind these days..
why do i have to be the only one to worry so much?!

2oo6; E SCARY YR.

2oo7; BASICALLY, GENERALLY, probably, GONNA BE..
your doom. WAHAHAHAHAS.
better kill yourself to avoid it.

in fact, im afraid of.. everything.

someone please, save me.

ahahahas. dramatic! i love. but hey, its true.

2005-09-02T08:20:00.000-07:00

I CANNOT BELIEVE DAT I ALMOST FORGOT THIS IMPORTANT DAY!
i mean i rmb it ytd.. da day before.. one week ago.. one month ago..
and i almost forgot it on da day itself. -___- how blur can i be..
niunai pls forgive me.. *pray in direction of taiwan* lols.
so... HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO NIUNAI!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YE YI HUA!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YE NAI WEN!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU...
YOU WILL BE MY LOVE FOREVER!
yays. im so happy for him..
i wish.. dat he will be happy and cheerful everyday..
never giving up hope.. never thinkin dat his fans hav given up on him..
cus we din.. he will be in our heart forever and we know dat one day..
ENERGY WILL BE BACK! WE KNOW IT OK?!

countdown to niunai's 27th birthday: ONE MORE DAY!!!

2005-08-31T22:08:00.000-07:00

countdown to niunai's 27th birthday: ONE MORE DAY!!!

wow.. it has been exactly one month since we saw ENERGY..
totally miss them like siao.. its crazy..
tinkin of them everytime and dey cheer me up so much..

one more day.. tommorrow.. second of september.. niunai will be 27 le!
waiting for it.. and i heard guess x3 tml have niunai as one of their guests worh!
yays! shown on his birthday summore. hahas.
but he's da only one that went on da show.. wonder where's shuwei dey all?
hais this is getting way too depressing..
hope ENERGY comes back quickly!
we miss you guys alot.. hehs.
smile always.. energy!

happy birthday ENERGY!!!

2005-07-13T22:24:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ENERGY..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
YOU GUYS ROCK!
and you all are three years old le so must be more mature kes? lols
wishes:
shuwei dun be so lame with ur cold jokes le..
niunai dun be so serious all the time..
kunda must tok more..
ahdi ah... MUST SMILE MORE! and happiness with alice..
all of ya must be happy! live life to da fullest and remember..
YOUR FANS WILL BE THERE FOR YOU GUYS ALWAYS!
yong yuan bu hui shuo zai jian oh~!

2005-07-01T06:08:00.000-07:00

long time nv blog abt me day liao huhs? hahas. in a happy mood today *shrugs*

so today is sports day..
tiring but its kinda fun i guess..
better than last yr..
although my nose got burnt
*hold nose in horror*.
da day went pretty well..
hehes. dun even have to trudge all the way to da stadium.
pinlang's dad drove us =D
[fast forward..]
yah den we split into grps to get our duties.
den peishan n me so hou lian pi pushed our way into han hui's grp. hahas.
din noe she incharge of takin audience de pics.
but its good! dun have to stand in da middle of da track and sizzling sun. hahas.
so went around taking pics..
[getting boring] but its lyk not much cca being enthu.
only CD. cheer cheer cheer lyk siao. lols. so take pics of dem lahs.
but i have totally no idea at dat time bout how im going to last till 12+ when its only.. 8?
i kept bugging my fren to lend me her mp3.. wahas.
so while we were taking pics i was lyk acting cool.. lols.
listen to music and take photos lyk ap liddat.
hahas. but da earphones chao difficult to handen sia.
cus i was 'joined' to me fren mahs..
though she not takin any photos..
and den everytime i move to take pics it will fall...
dropped at least 20 times liao. hahas.
heng she nv scold me for being so active.
den da races started le. not much to say..
cus just walking around da stands and tryin to press da shutter before da ppl notice..
lyk spyin liddat. -__- always ended up getting ppl's backs.
reaching da end was da relays.
dat time can rest liao.. cus take pics for lyk dunno how long kes..
tired plus my cam was burning up a lil
[hey i din noe cam can have fever too! =P lamed]
so sat at da track de side to watch.
mh in one of da relays worh!
so when she ran dat time shouted for da first time today. whhoo.
after dat it became even hotter..
i could feel my nose and hands burning from the heat..
kinda painfull.. 'specially my nose..
plus tshirt is completely BLACK.
tink da guys relays more exciting.. hahas.
run so fast lahs!

most fun part was da cheering competition..
omigod sum of da cheers so funny.
for sum ccas dey couldnt see da ppl cheering..
but we cld. hahas up close summore.
dun rmb much actually..
just rmb most clearly dat ncc was.. erm erm... amusing?
laughing uncontrollably when i was takin pics. hahahas.
but very creative lahs. all da cheers quite good.. ^.^
but still feelin heng da PS dun have to cheer.
will be a loss of face. LOL.
walked back to da stands dat time saw xiao di..
and cldnt help laughing abit again. hahas sorry lahs!

last part was prize giving. yahhs duh.
quite fun oso lehs! it feels so cool to be able to be so upclose..
hehes. take a lot of pics.. but all look almost da same to me.. ahahs.
saw gayle dere oso. me 'acting cool' again.. hahas.
still listening to music. but da music really helped ok.
so paiseh to be infront of so many ppl!
although i noe dey not lookin at me lahs.
standing in da middle summore.
first one i recognise who went up to take prize i tink is.. edison. right?
arugh my brain burnt oso le. cant tink straight.
messed up da pic of him. *grab head*
so i just have to be able to take ok pics of ppl i dun noe
but made a complete mess of pics of ppl i noe.
edison's one.. dunno. pic was blur.
den xiao di went up too.
did he noe i was going to take his photo?
humph shldnt have given him da warning.
so its lyk he went up to take prize dat time i pressed da shutter.
but he turned so fast!! grr.
da cher haven even let go he alreadi turned. i tink lahs.
edison said he saw me made a face. hahas.
kinda pissed off mahs. wahas.
last is jimmy. messed dat up too.
and when i was standing dat time hohs..
its almost as if my cam was scalding hot!
cus right under da sun for so long for da prize giving.. and i kept using it..
so i cldnt hold it for long at all. it was so so so hot!
and i was sweating lyk siao.

after da entire thing da grp of us went to tm.. ate at macs..
but i was not really hungry so wanted to bring da nuggets home.
but i forgot to take it when we went off. 5 nuggets wasted. lols.
edison dunno lyk really hungry or smting..
kept takin mh dey all de fries and turnin my fries de packet upside down summore when its empty.
ger mh grand said sum cold jokes too. *shiver* =P
dey wanted to watch war of the worlds.. akkk.
why not initial d?
so at first i cldnt make up my mind and dey bought my ticket too.
but ended up not watching it.
xiao di and yp came so late lohs.
movie starts at 1.40 but came at 1.30.
kfc eat so long. hahas.
so din take neos.. wanted to mahs.
actually made plans to watch intial d when da movie ends one..
but last min cancelled liao.
lols have to find a time to watch! initial d... hehes.
running out of stuff to write so end now bahs.

duo he niunai you yi sheng ti jian kang! or did i say dat b4? hahas.

2005-06-29T06:51:00.000-07:00

sumtimes i wonder y i write so much sad stuff in my blog. hahas. mayb its only when im sad i feel lyk blogging. yeah...

yan le de wei dao by energy

wo xiang wo zhi dao
yan lei de wei dao
cheng jing fu chu de mei yi tian mei yi nian wo bu cheng xiang tao
shou shang de chi bang
zhong you yi tian hui man man man man de bian hao
nen fei de gen gao
dang shi qu ni de yi kao..
dun wanna miss you
shi qu de bu nen zai liu zhu
zhi shi guo qu de hua mian
dou cheng wei wo men de shu fu
dui ai qing de wu zhu...

hais.. maybe nothing is able to last forever,
not even friendship..
maybe we are meant to drift apart..
maybe i shld just let you go..

lols. enough of the sad things.
list of stuff i learnt from the energy auto coming up:

o1. niunai isnt always happy although he always try to look cheerful [hais. sad.] smile until so forced.
o2. shuwei is very very very qing qie one so prepare yourself first when u go to him! dun be lyk me.. he said 'ni hao!' and i replied 'ta na chuo album le.' *slap forehead* i got a shock lahs!
o3. ahdi's just da opposite. so dao! nv smile one..
o4. kunda's hair look lyk maggie mee. so yummy! [i tink] can pull den it'll spring back. haha.
o5. being a security guard during autos, 'specially during energy ones, is a total nightmare. da fans will get impatient and just step over ya. 'OOOOOOOOOIII!' yarh.
o6. dun care if da security guard tries to stop you from running to the REAL line. just shan ta! if not you'r nv going to get ur album signed. lols.
o7. i really really shld have cheated. really. how much does a stamp cost anyways? not much. but hais.. if not i wld have seen all those funny faces niunai made liao lahs! *overflood with regret* so much for being a good girl.
o8. MOST IMPORTANT. be mentally prepared and make sure brain is working normally! arugh.

but i still love energy so much. wahas.
duo he NIUNAI you yi sheng ti jian kang o~!

dead.

2005-06-01T10:32:00.000-07:00

sie xin yi
born six june 1991
died two june 0131
due to heart failure
caused by energy spliting
or ahdi leaving
or not continuing of contract
or all of da above.
may she rest in peace.
hais.

i preparing my tombstone le..
and my will.. but seems lyk i dun have a lot of stuff to leave behind..
cus da only thing i have.. is a broken heart.
a broken heart can never be mend..
becus why else is it called a broken heart?
maybe some of you tink dat im being dramatic,
but dey really lighted up my life. really.

dey held a press conference in taiwan today..
its as if everyone is fearing the worst..
but who wun? da rumors [or are dey facts?] have been flying around too much for us to ignore
its lyk a multiple choice question:

a] ahdi leaving due to his back problem [deres even a chance of i duno, paralyse?]
b] universal music and energy not continuing their contract
c] energy's new album not selling up to expectation hence leading to split
d] energy being left with three people namely niunai, kunda and shuwei [i cant imagine!!!]
e] niunai and shuwei work together and kunda dan fei [dats even worse!!!!!!]
f] either mixture of the above
g] ALL OF THE ABOVE?!?!? [but heys dats impossible. i tink. oh no.]

and when i went to the blog of some energy fans.. sinee's and weiwen's.. dey both seemed so depressed.. sinee had even announced dat she is dead. and heartbroken. same as me. im not sure whether its cus of energy.. but shld be...

ARUGH JUST KILL ME. I DUN WAN TO LEAVE ANYMORE.

get a damm clue

2005-05-27T07:57:00.000-07:00

over by lindsay lohan

I watched the walls around me crumble
But its not like I won't build them up again
So here's your last chance for redemption
So take it while it lasts because it will end
And my tears are turning into time
I've wasted trying to find a reason for goodbye

I cant live without you
Can't breathe without you
I dream about you honestly
Tell me that its over
Because the world is spinning and I'm still living
It wont be right if were not in it together
Tell me that it's over
And I'll be the first to go
Don't want to be the last to know
I won't be the one to chase you
But at the same time you're the heart that I call home
I'm always stuck with these emotions
And the more I try to feel the less I'm whole
My tears are turning into time
I've wasted trying to find a reason for goodbye
My tears are turning into timeI've wasted trying to find a reason for goodbye

Tell me that it's over
Over
Honestly tell me
Honestly tell me
Don't tell me that its over
Don't tell me that its over

disconnected by lindsay lohan

Sleeping awake and awake when I'm sleeping
I've got a dry kinda thirst when drenched
On sunny days all I can see is the shadow
And I'm not above being under
And I'm at the brink though I know that I'm empty
And I always hide when its my turn to seek
My only believe is not to have faith in believing
Before I begin I'm over

[Disconnected] Broken off again
And I'm only not lonely when I'm lonely by myself
[Disconnected]Numb in the pain again I always back track forward
Cus all in all I'm Disconnected

Quietly loud while I'm noisily silent
Keep holding my breath when I'm trying to breathe
Swimming against all of my waves and the rapids
I only win when I'm losing

I just wanna live my life sedated
Cus I love driving myself away
Disfunctionally sane don't give a damn
I cant comprehend what I understand
Disconnected
Numb in the pain again I always back track forward
Cus all in all I'm Disconnected
Broken off again
And I'm only not lonely when I'm lonely by myself
Numb in the pain again I always back track forward
Cus all in all I'm Disconnected

this is how i feel...

2005-05-26T04:48:00.000-07:00

my burfdae this year's so gonna be pathetic. why do i have to feel so invisible all the time? i mean.. i have feelings too kes. i hate it, i hate it when ppl treat me as if im clothes or smting dat u change everyday or throw away when u are tired of me. quit it okes. and get a clue.

reasons why dis yr's bdae is going to suck:

o1. i dun tink anybody remember my birthday, or even know when it is.
o2. so many ppl are not going to be here on dat day-
- ger and company are going to student camp. i forgot wat day dey are coming back, but it will be a miracle if dey rmb anyways.
- xiao di is going to united states. and coming back on 11th. ho hum. dere goes my hope. -___-
- grandma is going to 3 countries which i did not ask. coming back 20 days after.
o3. even if sum of u rmb, it is not as if i will recieve any pressie.

wtf. i noe its rare dat i say vulgar words but nobody read this blog anyway. da board has grown dust. i mean, why do i have to act cheerful in front of u guys? its so tiring.. u guys always have to show ur attitude and when u look depressed, i try to cheer u up. mayb my method wasnt effective or wateva, but can u at least show some gratitude instead of ignoring me and grumbling? and every time i try to tok to u abt my problems, u dun even listen and immediately change da topic. or even go to the extent of ignoring me. i listen to ur problems, why cant u listen to mine? is that so hard?

u all have totally no idea how easily i cry. it always have to be u who cry. i noe dat i cant cry becus wat for? its not lyk if i cry, u guys will console me [i can imagine u saying... saying nothing.].. i noe that it is so so true dat if i look lyk my world have come crashing down on me, none of u will even notice or care. cus to u guys, im invisible. and i cant stand dis kind of treatment. no matter how hard i try, none of u get it. even xiao di. is it so hard for u guys to even try to comfort me? why do u have to take it as though i m toking crap when i confide in u?

why is it that all of u have to have some unknown problem with ur attitude? cant u guys be more friendly? why is it that everytime we walk to da mrt together [are we even?] u guys have to walk seperatedly? it is lyk all of u are splitting up.. sum of u have to walk so damm fast, and some of u just have to walk so damm slow. wats da problem with u guys? wat happened to us?

i wish we can go back to the past.. last year when we were united.. yes i noe. dream on.

by the way, if any of u are reading dis post, pls stop insulting niunai. mayb u said it in a jokey way... but just restrain urself i guess. one big reason i love niunai so much is dat he doesnt have an attitude. i noe he dun and nv will. unlyk sum of u.

im a total emotional wreck. but i hope i can get over it... someday. hais. im too drama for my own good.

sorry i hav to rant here... i noe u guys dun care abt my tots anyway. so ciaos!

p.s. pls do not feel too offended. im just expressing my tots. yupps.

2005-04-29T07:37:00.000-07:00

im still a long long way from mahh wish... boohoohoo..

today got 4 compos altogether.. mygod.. let me faint. hehex. b4 da english compo i was still blur blur [from lack of slp?] and cannot even figure out which one is coming first.. english or cheena. -__- and i kept fanning myself with my hands until so tired. hais. stressed mah. bu whine bu xing de. i noe i very hardworking.. i noe.. cus i was busy flipping through da cheena bk.. but actualli shld say i kiasu bahs. hahas. summore da bk is pri sch de. god. im pathetic. the standards of da compos inside are better den mine aniwae.

actualli da english compos quite relaxing de worhh. but isit just a illusion? mayb i just tink it was easy.. but most of da times 'i tink' will become 'wakaoz' lehs.. wat i wan de always dun come true mah.. wat can i do to unfreeze my brain. 'i need to get myself away from this world' hahas. but da witness report so hard man. write until lyk very short and awkward liddat. why why why?

den there was a long long long break of 45 mins [did da sch turned kind overnight? i mean 45mins.. so long lehs] linyu and peishan and i were begging shimin profusely to help us buy hashbrowns.. lols. den got order form summore. hahas. i almost got into a fight with peishan cus she kept wanting 2 hashbrowns.. hahas. we r so childish huhs. bleahs =]

okaex. doom came. cus da cheena compo was so damm hard! just when i tot da sch had decided to let us off, no... dey hav to torture us again. i was staring at the q. paper for dunno how long until i can even tink off a lil stuff to write -____- da si han thingie.. din wang lao shi say going to have quan gao de? den y all become.. wo si ding le.. and the 3 choices de. all weird weird ones. summore i can onli choose da ji xu wen cus wouldnt u believe, but i actualli gotten 3o6o for my miao xie wen? and jia xu jia yi is just as bad for me. at least i noe sumone shared da same fate as me. hehex. xiao di wo men yi qi tong gan gong ku bahs. whhhee.

speaking of xiao di. he was lyk so depressed for his cheena compo lehs. felt sad for him. XD hehex. i din noe dat he was sad noe.. cept dat in his smses he did seem dunno.. cold. den i read his blog den i noe de. humph. i so good nv buy choco even though u say treat me den u liddat to me. hahas. but at least i tink he's better now. lols.

oh yah n i got locked outside my own hse for 3 hrs straight. cus i forgot to bring da keys. gaaahh. wat a waste of my time.

ppl jiayous for mye worh!

niunaii wo ai ni yi wan nian ((x !!!

2005-04-27T01:15:00.000-07:00

*sniffle* i dunno y but its lyk now i chao suay... everyday.. cus i just had to get a flu and kept sneezing, den kept sniffling to myself.. i mean its lyk nobody cares how i feel niwaez right. and i have no mood to tok much less laugh. so i noe i m ap-ed these days. but feeling kinda pissed off now.. who cares abt wat other ppl tink huhs. hyprocrites and sucker-ups onli.. -___- sumtimes i wish im ignorant n blur abt everything n aniting.. at least den i wont feel any hurt or angry... not noeing anything.. hmmmm.. mayb i shld go erase my memories. whhhee.

today very funny, cus it lyk during recess or smthing ger and co were being so enthu abt 'zen qing' dat show.. hahas.. and quarreling with yp abt whos da best couple.. den yp go sae wat he lyks ah qiong and cause all of us to laugh lyk siao... ah qiong *raise eyebrows* den we all guessing whether he kidding anot. lols.

being realli realliiii slow with my studies lehs... im so damm scared i wun be able to make it in time.. mayb i can die before mid-yrs... lols.. hav been lyk studying da same history chpt. for the past four days. not slow. i need motivation but seems dats 'sumone' ish not helping at all.. cus dat person slacking even more den me. hahas. tv everyday. mygod.

everyone dats studying now.. jiayous kaes.

i luv niunaii XD

2005-04-17T03:36:00.000-07:00

current wish [until i fulfill it duh.] ; go to every single autograph session by Energy. cus i lurve them.... way to much. =]

i wanna start dis post by thanking jenny yahs... lurve ya! cus becus of u, at least i noe energy is tryna make us feel assured.. and better and all dat... hhehex. energy's lyk, going to hold a concert on july o9? its confirmed... even da media says so... hehez... so damm happi. den got o1 price of da tix so cheap man.. $28. rriiight. lyk i will be able to see aniting from dere... i mean, i being shho short and shorter and shortest.. surely my eyes can go way way up and forward... surely lahs. wish i can get better tix... but with my current ' financial difficulties ' its almost impossible for me to even enter da stadium... hais x10000. give moral support bahs! whheee~ energy all da way! hehehehe~ *laughing lyk siao* wo yi xiang dao niunai jiu bu you zi zhu de gan dao hen kai xing worh... x)

one thing dat makes me feel kinda worried though... da name of da concert is 'Energy Zai Jian Singapore' what da hell does that mean? according to mahh beloved [hehes] energy... and niiunai... it means seeing singapore again... cus its their 2nd time holding a concert here.. but dat stoopid sistic made the translation into 'goodbye' shhooo clever hoh. chao clever. yah right. dunno which one is true... what if the split isnt in energy's control? what if not even they are aware of wat da idiotic UM is thinking? if liddat.... anithing we try to do is useless le lehs... i mean... look at wat happen between UM and toro... mygod. why does energy have to belong to such a company? maybe its a good thing they are ending their contract... den they can join better companies and have a brighter future... hahax. i wish... and wish... and wish... and wish. as long as they dun split and become a thing... in history. NO!!! XD

tong guo de lei shui, huan lai de shi tian mei. ENERGY ! NIUNAII! JIAYOU!!!!!

ying wei niunaii... wozhhende.zhennde.tai ai ni le!

2005-04-01T06:15:00.000-08:00

Energy's contract with Universal Music will end @ the end of Jul dis year. It has been confirmed that both parties will not be continuing their contract with one another, does this mean that the once popular boyband may become only a name in history.
This past 1 and a half years has been filled with trials and tribulations. It was only yesterday that our papers exposed the fact that Ah Di was recruited into the AirForce and has secretly gone to Tainan for 20days of training, which was denied by Universal Music.
Yesterday, Universal Music explained that they had denied the fact that Ah Di was in the Army bcoz they were hoping that Ah Di would be exempted from the Army and if news of him going into the army was not released, Energy could continue with the recording and promotion of their new album. This was also to prevent fans from going to the camp to look for Ah Di.
Thankfully, it has been confirmed lat nite that Ah Di would be exempted from the army.
Ah Di said during his interview with our papers that, as soon as he had quit school earlier this year, he had received the notice for him to go for national service. He said :" Going for national service is only a matter of time and it is our duty to our country. There's really nothing to deny, it is only that i din want pple to worry abt me, its not that i wanted to bluff anyone.] He said that when he was in Tanan for training, he had gone to the army doctor for a check-up and has been certified as unsuitable for training. The doctors ceritfied that his spinal cord was pressing against his tailbone, which makes even walking painful. " Now that i am exempted from army, i will have to have a check-yp every 6 mths to certify if i am to be exempted or not."
Anyways, Energy will be able to concentrate on the recording of their album, which is expected to be released in May/Jun. However, Energy has met with another obstacle, which is that their contract with Universal Music will end in Jul and both parties have expressed no intrestes in renewing the contract.
Universal Music said : " Energy's fans are mature enough and should know that even w/o the renewal of the contract, they should not make things difficult for both parties." As Universal Music own the rights to the name, , no one knows what will happen after the end of the contract. Are they gonna go pursue their individual careers ?? Are they gonna call themselves by another name ???With the release of their new album in end May/Jun, the sales numbers will be very important. As it will determine if this album will be their last and Energy will become a thing of the past.
Energy's fans suggested online that to recover some of their lost popularity, they should ask Toro back to the group. But this idea was rejected by Toro's current manager, Sun De Rong saying: " Toro was hurt by them in the past and now they want to ride on Toro's popularity, this is definately impossible, why must Toro go down with them now? " Removing any possibilities of Energy becoming a 5-men group once again.

credits to jiinghan :))

This news is what i read at every energy fan's de blog lehs... it's 'almost' confirmed dat Energy will break noe... they have been on my mind the entire time and i still could not get over the fact dat... they are going to... arugh! forget it! makes me wanna cry all over again. why must so many stoopid, unlucky, unfortunate, unfair and totally unbearable-to-them-n-their-fans de stuff happen on them? They are way better in the PERSON part then some other so-called 'tian tuan' de grp lohs. they dun throw their attitude around, they dun have 'da pai', they dun scold da fans [in fact they thank dem every chance dey have. especially niu nai :)) ] , dey cared a lot about how we feel, they dun tink dat just becus they are popular, dey can dun care abt anything at all... they are so nice... the onli left on earth [okae dat was exagerated. but so wat?]... why is God so unfair to dem? i guess it's not always hao ren you hao bao... cus dere's like a phrase- nice guys always finish last... but why dem? why.... omigod.... i just couldn't get over it... i dun ever wan to.... no.... no.... ....

dramatic. but true. can you see the tears? and it is NOT becus of april fool. though i feel dat it's like april's fool everyday... God is playing a huge, torturous, not-funny-at- all, and dispicable joke on energy... and us [energy fans] every single day....

2005-03-17T19:44:00.000-08:00

Not much to tok abt these days noe... just busy hiding from my homework [a lot ] and yah... surfing the net lorrs... the guys went out yesterday... but not fun to me mahs... watch movie -_- again... i saving my $$$ for ms congreliality [how to spell?] mahs... broke liao worhx. hmmm... found this in my friend's de blog... abt energy mayb disbanding in July... aacckk~ cus both sides not interested in renewing their contracts!!! omigod... i almost fainted man... but mayb they can join like... HIM? s.h.e. de company mahs... then they can pai ou xiang ju with s.h.e.... then ella can be paired with niunai! finally~ hehehehe... they very pei one... *winks* i'm must be dreaming le... hahahahs~ BUT! energy you cannot disband hoh! if not you guys watch out... i'll choose one of the ways below and go taiwan to dui fu you... or... i will cry and scream myself to death... dying young for you guys... and niiunai *swoon* is okae de... hmmmm~ arrugghh... my tears coming out liao! cannoott~!!!! and no way are you guys or your idiotic scumbag of a manager asking toro to come back and help you guys!!! you guys are way more popular than "someone" okae... dun tarnish your reputation liddat! huumph. wat stoooppid online fan suggested that aniwae. no brain isit. bleahx. XP

10 things i'll do if EG disbands:

o1. Support whoever who has gone Solo [like real! onlii niunaii!!!~ but others oso will try support lahs... heex.]
o2. Make sure I fly (or swim) to taiwan and stab Sun De Rong to death. Toro shall be spared since he's in a phony band. [not realli. i tink i will 'sun bian' kill him as well. bleahs.]
o3. I'll also murder Sun De Rong if he tarik anyone from EG to Jungiery. [ HE DARES!!!]
o4. I'll murder Kunda if he decides to join Yummy. [he killing himself lorrs. yummy not popular one lehs.]
o5. Put aside the murdering. Niunai has his TBC outlet somewhere there right? erh~ Need any washer woman? [ omigod!! i go with you! ahahahs~ i will do anything... niunaii worhx~ anithing oso worth it. hehex.]
o6. I'll go to the memorial park and register a tombstone with the words, "Energy, Born in 2002, departed in 2005, Your legacy will be deeply remembered" and mail it to them. Now wait. Should i engrave it in Chinese instead? [ i tink they will be frightened to death if i realli did that... hahas. but who ask them? shang le zhe me duo ren de xin... XD]
o7. I'll lock myself up in my room and rip off (neatly) all my posters and laminate them~ T.T [ i so clumsy... sure accidentally rip one or two into half de. so cannot!]
o8. Erh... probably create another EG tribute again ba~ [a thousand and million more!!]
o9. I'll support Ou Yang FEI FEI!!!!!!
10. Okay maybe not Ou Yang Fei Fei. Zhang Yu? Fei Yu Qing? [ humph. onlii niunai! or mayb max from dong bang shin gi... ahahas. he so shuai mahs. and age 16+ onli!]

credits to szejia!! whheeee~

2005-03-05T05:20:00.000-08:00

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我要飞

我要飞　飞越伤悲　一种接近光的感觉
自由是梦想　无边无际的能源
我敢飞　有梦就追　一种骄傲尊严的美
巨大的考验　现在就要跨越

飞　飞　飞　飞　飞　飞我想飞
追　追　追　追　追　决不后退
飞　飞　飞　飞　飞　飞我想飞 Yeah~ [我想飞]

我要用力飞　不管有多远
超越了极限　挑战的冒险
我要勇敢追　奔向到终点
痛过的泪水　换来是甜美

i guess i will need a miracle... to do that.

2004-12-15T07:28:00.000-08:00

Lalalalala~ Wahahahaha~ wahahahahahah~
hahaz... enough laughing liaox... but i'm just so happy today!
*look at popular vouchers* oops, forgot that i spent them le...
heez... went to whitesands today and splurge on... guess what?
guidebooks! i'm just too good a daughter [and friend] to be true le... wahahaax
erm... and Energy VCD and 3 comics. i'm a good girl... but not THAT good okaex?!
besides, they are good for me worhx... good for me so must buy right?
*think of mom* yepx. she said that before. i'm soooo gooodd... :p

Reasons why they are good for me:

` Comic books- makes me feel happy... cheerful... blissful... dreamy... so i can concentrate more on studies... hurrs. like i can concentrate with comic books and vcds floating around me.

` Energy VCD- just the thought of it... hehex. *getting starry-eyed* it distracts me from bad stuff [such as textbooks] so how can i say it's not good for me?

` Guidebooks- hmm... that's hard... hey maybe if i study them hard i can earn another 70 bucks... or even more *WOW*... and buy more cds and comics! :D :D :D :D :D :D <-- greedy pig

the guy in the comic book's so cute *awwww* and when at the kissing parts... wow... it made my eyes go realli big *O.O* ... haix... they are so lucky... haix...

lucienne called me this afternoon... said there's gonna be a six-kaers gathering next mon... wonder if it will crash with one bee's de christmas gathering... if realli crash... no doubt i'll go to one-bee de... wahahahz... cos one bee `o4 rawkx! <-- evil

i want presents! first time thinking of celebrating x-mas... hope they wont end up cancelling the gathering... if not *imagine mahhself deflating* waahhx!?! dun wan! *pray* that's all le... buaix.

2004-12-11T04:49:00.000-08:00

if any of you guys come to this blog and see a lot of ppl scolding the blog, dun be surprised kaex? i dun even noe why they scold... if they hate it so much should dun come here right? how stupid. probably say those stuff becos they will never noe how to do skins this nice foreva. hahax.

dun tok about those sick ppl le. yesterday went to tm and saw wilber! *awww* so shuai loh... i tried to take pictures, but mahh camera too blur le... haix. but heng my cousin took a lot with hers... but not digital cam. so dun even noe whether they will come out nice. the performance was actually by MDIS... uh... i think is charity thingie... and it starts from 7.00pm. so we came to the place at 6.45 and wait until like siao. and he came at 7.50. kao right? and we stood becos we thought if he come we can have a realli good place to take pics... cos other ppl all sitting down... but the moment he came, everybodi surged up and we the shortties only can stand there and cannot see anithing. one couple even worse loh. before wilber came, the girl was sitting on her bf's lap, like nobody is there. arugh. then when wilber came, her bf held her up. and he have to stand in front of me! AAAHHH! siam lah!

mahh cousin's realli lucky loh... she won tix to J-stars... hengx is not energy...if not i faint with shock le. then she sae must take pics of 5566 tml so cannot take so much pic of wilber. but wilber's more important than them wat! haix.

2004-12-07T21:50:00.000-08:00

feeling realli pissed off these days... urgh.

so kept going out... with my family.

haix. pathetic. dun even have the mood to touch messenger,

much less mahh homework.

just the thought of them. argh.

hmm... the mall in hougang

got a new shopping strip... like bugis.

even the neoprint shop is as huge as bugis's!

but problem is... the people... nobody one. hahax.

no teenagers go there with friends de mah.

so leng qing qing de... like the rest of the place.

brrr... but actually there quite good de lah,

cos they have comic connection and all,

tried their best le. hahaz.

go out with family... so eat a lot of food...

not like when i stay holed up at home with sis

have to swallow a hard burger and

fries that taste like sticks. yuck.

pin lang went overseas a few days ago...

go where i never ask... i think is switzerland bah...

not so sure. heez. and italy?

but i got tell her to takkcare. i not so bad worh!

she's so lucky... get to go overseas.

hummphx. wonder if she will bring prezzies

for her poor friend. hahax.

these days all very boring de.

so not much to sae le.

buaix! =))

I am not pissed.

I am not pissed.

I am not pissed.

I am feeling like crap.

2004-11-21T08:18:00.000-08:00

Woke up at near 12 today... i tink i m rotting at home...

one week haven go out le... haix...

although it's sunday... there's nothing to watch on tv...

so sian worh... for breakfast i ate garlic bread [now you knoe how sian my life is]...

but heng i never burn the bread... too many times have that experience le...

and the burnt bits were a chore and a half to scrape off...

uh why am i toking bout garlic bread so much *shake head*?

Then lao dou called at when i was eating halfway...

and we fought about how many weeks of holidaex we still have...

cannot figure out... so diao... paraniod lah us...

then we try to figure out how to do the geo. project...

very hard loh... he dun understand what we have to do...

i oso dun understand so we both like 'fa feng' liao...

wa lao... can't believe we so hardworking... hehex...

Den still haven figure out how many weeks left... so went and ask me dad...

and he took the calendar and explain... on and on...

i know liao... is six weeks... but he still went on... like got excess saliva or something... heez...

but cannot be rude so i just nod and listen... hahax, i m a good daughter mah...

Went to White sands in the evening... hang around the library for a while...

and i guess i must be lucky or something... cos i found a english version tsubasa in popular...

which is actually a comic on sakura and syroran... and it's not wrapped... *swoon*

but horh... dunno why lah... inside that book de syroran is older...

than i think the author is lazy to create a new look for him mah...

so stretch the younger version of him longer... and urgh... did he look like a bag of bones!

sakura oso... humphx.

and i have created a new blog...

it's almost the same thing as this just with a new layout and the entries are of chinese song lyrics and 'logos' [avatars]

cos i realised that the avatars made this blog load kinda slow... yupx.

the link is - mirrored-me.blogspot.com

visit kaex? if any of you want the avatars... must ask me first... hehex.

2004-11-12T01:10:00.000-08:00

I just read my previous post... and i realised... i sounded so constipated!
yesterdae is public holidae... so watched a lot of tv...
first thing i did in the morning was watch jay chou de dian shi te zi...
quite nice lahx... cept that i can't understand a word he's saying!
but just looking at his shuai dai le de face is enough le... eee... i sound pevertic... heez.
then is zpop concert... have Energy... so of course must watch mah... duh... but the camera kept shaking... like got earthquake or something... see le oso like see nothing... humphx.
but i can feel their shuai-ness... hehex... wonder if got that kinda thing...
after that... cos long time never watch sakura le... so digged out all my tapes and stared at syroran's face for 3 hours straight...
i noe i feng le... but cannot tear myself away from the tw...

he too shuai and cuteee le mah... i got proof de... see?
not even nicholas from p.d.2 is as shuai as him...

except for... H I M ---
waahahahah...
at 2 pm is a ban jiang li... but i too involved in staring at syroran's face...
so missed the prizes given to taiwan singers... haix...
and have to look at the china[nei di] singers... and lets just say...
they are long long way from the taiwan idols in the voice and looks department...
and this time de ban jiang li very sian one... cos it's held in china..
so almost all the prizes were for china singers...
then after watched sakura again... and went to tm for a while...
boring...
oh yah... i found a blogskin... inside de sylvester so shuai! *sha xiao* it's really nice...

2004-11-08T07:04:00.000-08:00

i can't believe any father can be so arrogant and unreasonable to his own child.
i mean, she's your daughter. siaox rite.
but i'm not tokin bout me. my father's not that bad.
but as for my sis's frenx's... well...
what can i say those fathers?
one word: bastard. i dun care.
heez. in this cruel world, there are two types of father-from-hell:

Type one.

A man that slaps his daughter over nothing.

True story.

the father is reading the newspaper.
the daughter asked her father for it.
he said 'no' and the daughter asked why.
he, being the unresonable and arrogant man,
said it was because 'he was the father'.
then the father pointed at his daughter and said that she was 'rude'[as if -_-]. the daughter pointed back at him,
and he said that she cannot point at him.
the daughter asked him 'why' again,
and when he gave the reason -cos he's da father - , he slapped her.

rrriiiggghhhttt. just becos of the newspaper.
what's wrong with pointing?
at least she din point at you with the middle finger,
though that would have been way too obscene. hehex. *ku3 xiao4*
anyway, my sis told me her friend's dad slaps her friend all the time. over nothing.
and that's what makes me even more agitated.
______________________

Type two.

A man that wants to know everything his daughter does.
And he doesn't do it sneakily.
he's way too unreasonable for that.
he does it with her full knowledge.

True story.

The father installs a video camera behind the computer of his daughter,
becos he wants to know what websites she visits, and who she talks to.
the daughter hates it. but becos he thinks that he is the 'father', da man,
he can do anything he wants, and dun wan.
and he dun wan to take the video camera away. end of story.

like she's going to any porn sites lohx...
how can a father be so suspicous and untrustful of his own daughter?
even if his daughter does go to porn and dirty sites,
it's all becos of the genes passed down from him.
hehex... i'm so bad, but i'm angry by how unreasonable people can get...
what a barbarian.
even my sis oso say 'guan ta qu si'.
lolx... kaex. too much ranting le. buaix.

2004-11-07T07:36:00.000-08:00

kaex kaex... i have finally gone out of my mind.
it's dead in the night and i'm still roaming the streets of the net searching for logos.
so... did that make me sound like a drug addict? or a lunatic?
hahax... i noe very diao-ed... but boredom... sux.
nvm.

if you guys want those logos...
you can ask me for their html code. yupx.
cos i dun noe how to explain the 'process' of searching for them. hehez...
oh and does anione noe how to upload songs?
cos i realli realli want to upload s.h.e. de Wu Ke Qu Dai...
it's nice. and soooo dreamy. hehx.

2004-11-07T04:31:00.000-08:00

whee~ went to watch princess diaries two yesterdae!
shoooo nice lorhx... so romantic... lolx...
aniwae before e movie we were waiting for binkiie to show up,
cos he's e one with e tix...
me[duh.], ger, huix, edi, jie ting, xiu, pin lang...
then when he appeared, ger and huix yelled his name sho loud...
everybody turned to look at them... hahax... sho funny...
then we went in for the movie lorhx...
me a bit started to sianx sianx de... dunno why...
then we sat down... me between ger. and edi...
but uh~ i feel a bit awkward... *shrug* hahaz...
mayb cos the before-movie advertisiments are very yucky...
pervertic one loh! better not describe them... hahax...
we were passing the popcorns around when the movie started... finally...
at the start, i was like, gagging bout the main actor... nicholas...
but then... we all start to like 'zhong dian' le... lolx...
all think he very shuai le... hahax...
even edi oso know cos i told him...
actually i cannot remember much bout the movie larhx...
just the kissing parts... and they were sho romantic lehx!
and the part with the grandma singing something...
dunno what larhx... was uh... a bit lame. yupx.
cannot recall much cos i was laughing the whole way...
but it got a bit uncomfortable halfway through the movie...
cos i kept banging into ger. and edi. legs...
and i almost knocked edi's drink over laughing...
heng he never noticed... if not i d-ie. t
hen edi was scolding me and ger the whole way...
telling [hissing?] us to shut up...
cos we laugh too much le... hahax...
oh and still have the shooting fire arrows thingie...
just remember from reading ger's blog...
that was really cool too... and romantic...
huh huh. when did i get so sentimental? kaex kaex... nvm.
when the movie finish we all went out lohx...
but i was really disappointed...
wanted to see the couple together... and kissing...
i thought they will show the mia and nicholas get married and all that mushy stuff...
but nope. so a bit sianed...
and i was looking like a ghost... with my hair down... hahax...

waahh~ so long le me post.
going to finish le so dun groan kaex.
then everyone all sian sian de...
rushing around trying to find the toliets...
then we went out to eat at kfc and i almost got drove over by a van when i dashed across the road... lolx...
heng the driver never yell at me... shoo scary!
but i got honked at larhx... ONLI... heez... thank god.
i dun want to die so young hoh!
although i have alwayx thought of many ways to commit sucide...
but dunnid to take them too seriously right?
we went back to tm after that...
then end up at the arcade after they all say dunwan to take neoprints... huh. all bully me de.
watch them play... then... went home le lohx...

i really admire anne stuart... lolx...
cos the books she write are shoooo nice!
read a book from her today...
and the storyline was sorta like princess d. 2... *swoon*...
shooo nice... but it seemed more real larhx... lolx...
unlike the p.d.2... too fairy-tale-liked... heez...
uh~ too long le yeh. kaex... buaix.

2004-10-22T04:15:00.000-07:00

Heez... went on a mad search for logos today...
found tons of them...
very nice horhx?
but not i create one of course...
i not so talented larhx...
and i oso not zi lian...
if not i sure say i genius le... lolx...
no mood to talk about my day this time...
unless anione wants to hear about the trip to the dentist?
hahaz... no right.

2004-10-20T03:49:00.000-07:00

yah yah... i finally have the mood to post le...
coz today very sadded what...
it's like... so many people cried today in the class...
make me feel so sad oso... must cheer up kekez?
okie~ dun beat me up~!
today receive so many many results... tai duo de da ji le lah!
makes me feel like fainting just now... argh~ *clutch heart*
then sabbie... haiz... dun want to say le lah...
just that god's really not fair...
sum ppl [not mentioning ME... lolx.] studied so hard...
then in the end... haiz... no fair...
hahaz... and today... edison had three head-ons with P.l.* and ahem~ it's so funny!
the expression on him when P.l. came into the class when we were playing 'murderer'[lame game]...
omigod... its like... he looked totally horrified?
p.l. so bad meh? eh~ [dun dare to say]
that time... gang hao wo men holding hands mah...
then edison kept on mumbling 'dun come in... dun come in' until like uh~ i almost went crazy?
then he suddenly let go off my hand... hahaz... dan xiao gui...
then when we were going home...
i almost got a big big talk on how 'wonderful' edison is...
and guess who was it from? ying gai bu yong cai jiu dong le bah?
i really dun understand why it was so obvious that she is interested in [attracted to?!?!] to him...
and yet she have to keep ranting on and on about how she think he is a big *ahem* and is so~ ok, i shall not continue on the insults...
but really~! sumtimes i really can't ta-han her already...
she's really like... how to say?
is there really a need to defend herself? with insults?
lolx... too many 'really' le...
i mean... isn't it more obvious that she likes him the moment she starts chattering on non-stop about him?
ta zen de shi diao dao bu nen zai diao le...
maybe we should dedicate our one bee 'diao' cheer to her... lolx...
aniwae... today received de results... hai ok lah... not bad... not bad...
i noe got ppl worse than me... so i not so zi bei le... [oh no you dun! no beating up of xinyi!]
but if i have gotten more... i will be happier...
and i really dun have confideence in my english and e.lit...
remember how much i got for my english during CA2?
53.5 lehx! so tell me how to have confidence in myself?
my maths... there's so many careless mistakes in it...
it's maricle that mr mok didn't bian wo...
'cept that he did say i can do better... is that a kou tou shang de gong ji? lolx...
how is it possible for someone to have 9 careless mistakes that cost her so many marks! arghhh~!!!!
what's more... today jonathan was sulking throughout the whole day... head lying on the table and... haiz...
i think the guys have it worst than the girls... i mean...
it's like even if they want to cry... they can't...
coz their faces will be thrown if they even cry one single drop of tears...
especially for a big guy like jonathan... yao ku you bu nen ku...
yi ding hui gan jue gen xing ku... gen shang xing...
wo zen de hen gao xing wo bu shi nan ren... have so much de restrictions...
cheering up is such a hard thing to do... when you have such a great impact...
but nevertheless [lolx... i sound so principal-like...] we must jia you and get over our xing ling shang de shang hai kekez?
everyone [or rather... humans] ... remember that one bee rawks [and one cee suckx]...
and you will be cheered up a lil' bit le! coz you are so xing yun to be in such a great class wat... hahaz...

- [ shang xing du of one bee ] - 99.9999 %
- [wu nai du of xinyi ] - 80%

* no mention of who that is... if you think that's you... there's nothing i can do... just well... say 'no offence!'

2004-10-15T03:21:00.000-07:00

Warning: i think you are better off not reading the below extract... coz it will be really depressing... unless... of course... you are as diao-ed and sian-ed as me lahx....
_______________________________________

finally... eyos are finished...
but nothing to at home lehx... so sianz...
cannot go out... actually is dunno want to go where...
cannot go shopping... coz i hate it...
dunno what to update for winglin...
sister not at home to play with me... go to friend's party le...
haiz... video oso nothing to watch... not interested...
eh~ why so many '...'? ohmigod... i'm going crazy...
the house's so quiet... 'cept for the radio...
but the song sux... or at least the singer does...
dunno what c.d. to listen to... all heard thoussaaannndddsss of times le...
at first during the studying for eyo,
felt so much like slacking until i die and listening to Energy until i go crazy,
but now... dunno what happened to my head...
felt so restless and argghh~ can't concentrate lahx!
xing ku le ze yang jiu... end up so sianz...
but actually quite good larhx.. nothing to do means dunnid to study...
better then staring at the book and feeling like dying...
hmmm... wonder how much i will get for eyo...
no confidence at ALL lohx...
argh~ it's that song on the radio again... Cai Qun Jia de 'Sunrise'...
depise it a lot lohx...
the radio keep playing it again and again...
first is nan shen ban de then is nu shen ban de...
need so many ban for what?
it's not as if the song is nice at all...
not all the time oso sunrise one right?
need to hear so many times a day... advertising oso dunnid to until so guo fen... i noe i sound cranky...
that coz i am... cranky= me... diaoz... -_-"
lai, tok about something kai xing yi dian de!
urmmm... like what?
diaoism again... can't bear it...
bye... i going to kill myself le...
how about giving me some suggestions on committing sucide...
besides all the tactics gerger. had taught us before...
i want one that can give me a lot of pain...
uh no... say wrongly... should be one that is a lot of fun...
bored out of my mind le...
and i dun care if i have to go to the extreme to give myself something, anything to do!
everyone... must take care of yourself hoh...
dun end up sick for the whole two weeks then cannot eat long john silver and pizza like me hoh...
oso must jia you! One bee rawks!
Hahaz... wat a sudden change of mood...
mood swings again... dun care me... buaix!